I Want More than 27%

After graduating law school and taking the bar, I wanted to work somewhere part-time while anticipating bar results and before I took a “real” full-time position. What I did not realize is that my temporary job would turn into something bigger and last the next ten months.

Working in D.C.- 2 years ago

However, that job has come to an impasse, and now I have to figure out what I want to do… While attending law school, I had every intention of working abroad or in Washington, D.C.  in international development. However, now that that possibility has become a reality, I am not sure that it is what I actually want to do.

For the first time in my life, I don’t know what is up next and it is exciting – BUT also terrifying!  Also, I am really happy with where I am, physically and mentally.  I think the dilemma that I have reached is whether I should strive to live life and be happy or to continue to pursue my “dream career.”

I am not sure why I can’t do both at the same time… But I am pretty sure the two (at least in the past) were not aligned. Now I think I can make it work, however my career goal has changed.. to what, I don’t know.

Graduating with my LL.M.

I think the best advice that have I received so far is to look for what I don’t want to do with my life, rather than what I do want to do. Because I will get to the same result, but there will be much less disappointment, AND it is okay to find a lot of different jobs that you just don’t want to do.

I know our generation is haunted with words like entitlement and spoiled, especially when it comes to job decisions. I’ve even heard members of my own family say that you aren’t meant to be happy at work, it is a job, and it’s just what you have to do.

But what is the point of living if you are just miserable the majority of the week- a typical Monday-Friday 9-5 job, you would only enjoy a couple days of the week- or 25% of the year. Looking at the life expectancy of the average woman in America (78 years old– assuming I will even reach that age), I will only get to enjoy about 5000 days of the next 18,980 days of my life- or about 27% of the rest of my life.

I just don’t accept that I can’t enjoy the majority of my life. I realize that I will have jobs that I dislike or entry level positions that I just don’t enjoy. But that is not the same as a career or long-term position that makes you miserable. I am more than willing to work a job I hate when I need to or to rise in a company.

But to take a job that you despise because it seems like it is what you should do or it is what everyone else thinks you should do is going to lead to years of disappointment and regret. For now, I am going to enjoy my years of ambiguity, because it could lead to something great. But it has taken me YEARS to realize this.








In My Pursuit of Happiness

As a recent law school graduate that has passed the bar, I am overwhelmed with questions like: “What law are you practicing?,” “Where are you working?,” “Which firm do you work for?” I am sure that all recent college or professional school graduates understand what it is like to go through this.

My boyfriend & I at my law school graduation.

I think is hard for me because I have always known what I am going to do next. From high school- it was college, from college- it was law school. This is the first time in my life that I have gotten the infamous “What are you doing now?” questions.

I want to be excited about this point in my life where I can pursue anything, but I am the type of person that has always had a plan and it provides me with a feeling of security. I can’t escape the feeling of embarrassment when I have to give an ambiguous answer about my current employment.

I think I want to use this blog as way to track my journey. I know so many people are going through this stage in their life, and at least for me it is hard to connect with others because I am too shy/embarrassed to discuss it with anyone. So if you are in this stage in your life or have already gone through it, please message or comment below. I am starting to get excited about what is up next.

First Post

So… I feel like I need a disclaimer before beginning my blogging journey. My domain name in no way describes my blog. When I decided to start a blog, I thought I could write about how to save money on food, beauty products, and travel. I am not an extreme couponer, but I will search long and hard for a good deal on almost everything. However, before publicly revealing my blog, I became very anxious about it and immediately wanted to delete it. I think focusing on that was just too much pressure for me.

After realizing that, I decided that I was going to blog for me.  I needed a place that I could look back upon my life for years to come. I have made many photo albums over the years, putting in hours of work, only to lose them shortly thereafter. I decided that this would be a good way to track my life, and for my family to check it out as well.

I am also at an awkward point, where I am trying to figure what I am going to do with my life. I graduated from law school last year and passed the bar. But the journey to establishing myself into a career that I love has proven to be a bumpy one and I am excited to share it and find others that feel the same way.

I might not be interesting or I might not be able to keep up with posting. But I thought I would give it a try either way. I am going to post every Sunday night…(if I remember/have time- already coming up with excuses).